I'm Getting Paranoid
I was just talking to my mom on Yahoo the other day and I told her about the ex-friend I so hate. She said that I should try to stay away from this kind of people. Then she went on and on about how she knows how difficult it is for me to finds real friends in a foreign land. She said I should not be so desperate because real friendship develops by itself. She also told me one important thing and that is; try to be friends with people who don’t need anything from you and whom you don’t need anything from. It’s the only way you can be sure that the two parties are not using each other.
After the thing with “the ex-friend”, my interest in people lessened. I didn’t know that I would be affected that much but I noticed myself losing interest in meeting new people, Filipinas particularly. Before this whole thing happened, I was really friendly and open to people especially to those who I think are from my country. I normally smile and greet them, wave to them from afar, start small talks with them, and listen to them but I don’t do those anymore. That is sad but I can’t help but be wary. I can’t help but fear that I might be meeting somebody like Anne again.
I still keep my old friends (the ones in the picture above) and I am somehow still open to having new friends but it won’t be that easy to be friends with me now. I just don’t have to like a person but that person also should earn my friendship. I still hang out with people, go out with my classmates, spend time with colleagues and friends of my husband, and meet people but it would surely take more for someone to be my friend.
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Hello, I’m a Filipina and I don’t need anything from you. Can we friends?
Joke.
Seriously, it’s true. Because we’ve got so many poor people, some of our OFWs ,este expats will take advantage of us, either to have a better job and after they’ve drained us of our resources, they go to the next best thing.
That’s why I usually don’t befriend as many Filipinos as I wish.
It’s sad, really.
First, thanks for geeting my birthday.
As for your post, i could relate to your lines: you easily befriend anyone by smiling, waving and make conversation. I was like that three yrs ago. But God allow things like making a wrong choice of friend to teach us to be more extra careful making friends….
Im not picky but im more careful…
And Im glad I did!
@ kate
) kaloka! pero true, nahihirapan na ulit ako magtiwala. pero syempre in every rule there’s always an exemption.
actually ako ang may kailangan sau!
sa kaso mo, hindi ko pa naman nararamdaman na dapat mag-ingat ako sau dahil kakikilala palang natin pero sa tingin ko naman e magki-click nga tau.
ohh was it me??? wowww!! long time ago pic… so many happy memories! yeah same vienna.. i value the friendship we share up to this time.. and am always grateful havin you! yeah i chose to be on my own here, i can trust nobody.. and i love my own company.. am friendly but i always set my boundaries.. and i dont mingle with filipinos that much.. Scaredy…. hehehe miss na nga kita e!
and ohh that cam… hehehe sad but i threw it away…