i’m dreaming my life away

I’m not really dreaming my life away. The title is just from a song that played inside my head as I thought of writing this post.

This post is inspired by my friend, Sterndal. Lately, she’s been writing about some of her dreams and this prompted me to think about my own dreams.

Many people think that when they reach a certain level, they’ll be contented but I don’t think that that’s the case. I believe that man is never contented, i.e.; when he reaches the point he wants nothing more. I believe that the moment you stop dreaming or stop wanting is the time you stop living.

Many people think I have a wonderful life here in Europe and I honestly think that too. I have a loving husband, a job, a house, a car, and some small things that other people don’t have. I should be contented, right?

Of course, I am.

BUT that doesn’t mean, I don’t want anything anymore.  I am happy with all the things I have and all the things my husband and I can afford to have or do and I am really thankful for each of these things.

I won’t say that everything I have, I have worked hard for because that is simply not true. Actually, I can only name two things I worked hard for and those are my first guitar and my bachelor’s degree (which is, by the way, not accepted here in Austria—depressing!). The others just happened or are given to me.

Of course, like many, I have dreamt of seeing different countries but never really thought that that’ll happen. I’ve seen China but not without help from my mom and dad. I found the teaching job in China by myself but if it wasn’t for my parent’s money, I wouldn’t have been able to afford to go there. So it’s like they sent me there. I’m now in Europe and I have my own car but being in Europe just happened and the car was just given to me by my husband.  I can speak German and I have a teaching job here but I wouldn’t have achieved those without support from my husband.  All the fancy stuff like clothes, jewelries, shoes, bags, gadgets, etc are mostly bought by me but I won’t say I’ve worked hard for all of them because I won’t be able to afford them  if I would have to worry about things like bills, food, and other necessities. My husband takes care of all our necessities. My Husband is super and having him is also something I DIDN’T work hard for. LOL. He just happened to me.

So before this post becomes a post about the things I have, I will go back to my dreams. I am a very lucky girl and I believe that I have more than what I dreamt about as a young girl but sometimes achieving a dream only makes you dream more. I had dreamed of having a job and I got it but now, I am dreaming of having a better job. I had dreamed of owning a computer and I already had a series of computers but I still want a better one each time.  Stuff like that happen to me a lot.

But if you ask me right now about my ultimate dream, I’d say I have two of them.

First is, I dream of becoming an asset to my husband. He’s done a lot for me. I also want to help him in any way I can, especially, financially. I want to get a better paying job so I can help him with the bills, with the things we need, with our holidays, etc.

Second is, I dream of being able to give something special to my parents. I know, they will not ask me but I want to do something for them. Like a European tour or something equal to that.

Of course there are other small stuff I want but I won’t include them here because these small stuff just lead to my bigger dreams.

656 words! LOL! Dreaming is good.

Tagged as: achievements, aims, Daily Life, dreams