Just when I bowed to update my blogs a little bit more often, something happened that did NOT allow me to keep my bow. So from now on, no more talks of updating my blogs more often.
But you’ll probably want to know what took me away from my blogs for two months so this post is just going to be about that. Why didn’t I blog?
Answer: My husband got sick. And while that is not the only reason, it is where all the other reasons rooted. Before my abrupt disappearance from the blogging world, I was really very motivated to work on my blogs—to redesign them, update them more often, accept more opps, etc. At that time, I felt like my blogging will dramatically incline. Unfortunately though, my husband got sick and I had to take care of him. For two months he was at home and the first few weeks were really horrible. It took him that long to recover because his sickness was not the kind that heals after a few days. It was nothing serious because he did not have to be admitted in the hospital but it was serious enough to turn our life around for a brief period of time. He was too weak to do anything. Fatigue, night sweats, chills, muscle pains, etc… His sickness was keeping us both wide-awake at night. I was, of course, expected to do everything—cook, clean, look after him, do the grocery, etc. And while I am not complaining… I tell you, it was difficult. I had a very ill husband and a 3-month-old baby to take care of. I was not sleeping well even though I felt overly exhausted at the end of each day. I was very stressed. Usually, I don’t cook everyday because hubby eats a big lunch at work so when he comes home, he’s not that hungry and would only request a salad or a small snack. But when he was home, I had to cook every single day and that means I also had to do the grocery more often.
I was really stressed.
I got sometime for myself..or rather, I was able to steal sometime for myself from no other than myself. Do you understand what I mean? Say, I still have 3 hours to sleep before my son wakes up… but because I want to sit for a while, relax a bit, and maybe read a blog I follow or check my FB, I stay up for an hour. I stole an hour away from my sleeping time.
It was really a stressful period for me.
I could have also stolen some time to blog BUT I didn’t. Why? Because.
There were times when I was assigned opps. Decent ones. The kind I’ll agree to do in a heartbeat. I accepted all of them BUT I was not able to do any of them because I can’t focus—hubby needs something, baby is awake, no more milk in the fridge, it’s almost time for lunch, etc. In short, there was always a reason why I was NOT able to sit and write. And when I finally do, the opps are expired.
So even tough I could write a non-opp blog entry, I didn’t because I sort of lost my enthusiasm to blog. This happened to me a few times only but enough for me to feel that I lost my blogging mojo. Yeah, that was it—I lost my blogging mojo. At some point, I just didn’t like to blog anymore. I still like blogs, infact.. during my stolen times, I read blogs but at some point, I just didn’t have the inclination to blog anymore.
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Above post was written last night. I am publishing it today because I got interrupted. Anyway, today I learned from the tweet of my blogger friend, Sterndal, that google just updated its pageranks. WTF!?! I am so annoyed. Why does it have to happen when I don’t have any update for two months. 
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Welcome back mars! Happy blogging